Reflection on April’s theme: The natural state of the human being is worship. The human needs God as the garden needs spring.
Whilst growing up I was told: ‘Worship Allah, for if you worship you will be rewarded entry into the gardens of heaven.’
So I worshipped for an end result and for a better afterlife. There was no worship for the Divine Itself. It was more for the favour He was going to do for me, and not for the love He bestows upon me day after day. That didn’t even enter my train of thought.
I felt like I was living in the darkness of winter; all I did was seek forgiveness and live in fear of death.
This path has changed that considerably. In fact, I now feel that my heart blooms like the gardens in spring. That niggling thirst I have is slowly being quenched, and fear is changing to love. I’ve gained a close friend and a companion whom I consult in times of need and to whom I’m forever thankful in times of joy. I’m now closer to Him than ever before and consciously attempt to be present in times of worship.
Without this worship (and by worship I don’t just mean the act of prayer, but also refer to daily deeds and service), I’d still be in a state of perpetual winter. The understanding that God is with me at all times, that He plans for me, protects me, fills my life with joy and happiness, and sometimes with sadness (but always for a good reason) fills my heart with light.
I ask myself: ‘Is there any moment in my life when I don’t need God?’
~ Tasmiyah Shabir, Old Windsor
May’s theme is: Leave opinions and blame; be an objective witness, and serve in love.
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Integral Sufism: Living Tawhid (The Practice of Oneness)
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